给他的……

给他，

不懂为什么……我好像发觉，我已经很久没看到你了，情不自禁地想念你。或许你不知道，这几天的每一个晚上，我都要熬过那种痛楚、寂寞、想念……那种无法形容，又复杂的味道，像你一样，侵犯了我的味蕾。我却不知为什么，毫无抵抗力，无法对抗那我对你的思念…

记得张惠妹的一首歌《我恨我爱你》，在k.x的blog里看到。我突然觉得……这首歌真得很好听。因为……我恨我爱你。那种莫名其妙的感觉，曾经享受，享受那种痛楚，是连科学也无法解释清楚的感受……

刚开始一看见你，会莫名其妙地觉得你好可爱……但听说，你都有一定的‘粉丝’。就是因为这样……一直都不敢告诉你我心中的秘密。我很怕……怕别人认为……我是喜欢你的样子、权势、家庭背景……拜托！！我发誓，我绝对不是那种人。我是喜欢你过后才发现的。（糟糕……全都说出来了）而且，我从来都不觉得你帅……这是真的。请不要生气，虽然我知道你不会看到这封信。

我傻傻地训练了很多次，怎样面对你……每一天，每一秒。我为了这个游戏，心痛了多少次。我知道……你有喜欢的对象了。而且，她很美，好我很多。这我都知道。她是我的朋友，我试图抹掉对你的感觉，尽我的努力给她一切她需要的指导。朋友都说我好傻、好伟大。会吗？这是不知不觉的吧……你知道吗？当我和她说着你，我好想骂你，你真傻……为什么不懂得去接近她，告诉她你有多喜欢她？可是……我觉得我不止在说你，我好像也在说我自己……

我心碎成万段。每一段颜色都不一样，各自散发自己的光彩，颜色夺目漂亮。当有一天，你看到了其中一块，或许你会称赞它，还是选择把他丢掉……不管怎样都好，它……已经碎了……就算你把它重组成一起，颜色始终都不一样，始终都有裂痕。

我不会再躲着你……因为躲了也没用。

或许……是你在躲我。

我，

LengZai

这一天这一时这一分这一秒

Holiday=Snack Food?!XD

yaaa...dis holiday very sienz + boring + beh tahen = OH MY GOD

bt my sis very gaolat...u know...she always go convenience store buy food...
no juz only ''ceh'' to me...for me, it's very gao lat ad!
chocolate...ice cream...drink...coke...potato chips...cup noodle...
see like she want to leave home away ad...xp
i feel so gaolat becauz ....
she no buy for me~!!!XD
T^T...i wan eat too d ma..

bt i gt little scare now...for my weight...
i dun wan ''add oil'''....T^T...
cauz my parents will look down me...T^T...
they wan compare our weight n height together...
for height i not so scare...
haiz...so i wan control myself now...XD
cauz if win can gt prize o...$_$
XD...

dis holiday not so special...
if wan say special...becauz too sienz...= =...i think no factor ad...
my mum wan me go one more tution...
i promise ad...juz go...better than stay at home...
n next year wan pmr ad...T^T
haiz...sad...
now sienz at home lehh...
wan call 999...juz jk...XD

Blog Templates...pek cek

最近一直换blog template...想找到最适合&最美的……XD
很难。因为刚开始的时候是真得很pek cek...一直不能开窍……
因为XXX的template只能用在旧的format...
我的是新的format，不懂哪里出了问题，一直问朋友……原来不是我的错= =;

但是换上旧的format...真的很pekcek= =
因为不能edit东……不能change西...swt
连about me & chat box that 都不能换啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！
swt
wan explode...= =

顺其自然
may b 有一天……beh tahan 的我会把这个'年轻'的电脑砸坏……XD
算了。
年纪大是要面对这种‘伟大’的‘牺牲’……
XD

自己的世界……XD

这只是突然之间想到的道理，活在别人的世界很难。
haiz……又要重视对方的感觉、了解他的生活方式，很难啊！
虽然有时候很好玩……而且很刺激XD……haiz...
还是活在自己的世界比较好。
而且可以反省一下d……^^

曾经想要进入别人的世界……

还没跨入门槛，就被门神给踢屁股溜出来……XD

haiz...暗恋多难受

有一个长得不错的朋友说过：“有本事就让别人喜欢上你；而不是去喜欢上别人。”
是真的这样吗？T.T

如果这样，世界就没有真爱了。（想得太远XD）

算了。T^T至少我还有我。

快乐欣赏自己喜欢的feeling。

以我为尊~!YEAH!

Hard to do

My horoscope give me suggestions...say dun wan so impress he will come back...
really?...T^T...bt i miss him...how?
bt now...really...i very comfused...i think another ppl...not him
i change heart ad?NOWAY
i cant do it...T^T...cauz i giv my time..my mind to him...
dint hav any nice 结果...how can so easy say no love thn no love

shit holiday...make i so miss him...cauz cant see him in holiday
last day on schul oso...he juz appear...i gt see him...bt not smile n not chat
n i juz leave...i gt 后悔so much...when suk march..i see him i will smile...
n he smile at me too...so cute..i like it...
bt now no...dunoe why...last day...see him...i juz seek...dun noe...T^T

love is difficult...really...i noe he gt gal dat he like...
bt watever..cauz i can like him...why he cant like another ppl....XD
bt say really la...he not so kao gal...XD...

oopss...say out my secret ad...how come...= =
lazy delete...
promise me
dun wan say it out...OKay?

If Secret be written in Blog

If I really write out all of my secret on my Blog...
I cant imagine what things will happen...What mind will another people think about me?
WoW...really cant imagine...XD...
But just now see someone's blog...dont know how he can write out all of his secret...
got little admire him...XD...but he doesnt write the important people name la...XD
but also was a good job...
If me...I cant say it out lo...because got my friends seeing or b\visiting my blog...
haiz...secret is a not good things...T^T...always make me confused...

Dont know how to write...write a nice blog...
difficult job...not for fame or what...
just for myself...atleast i could proud of it...XD...And I want all of my readers like it too...
XD...
any way...may be after today...i will say some of my secret out...XD...
Please Await It~XD

New JJ...XD

yesterday go new jj wit my dearest fenz...wahahaXD...song~!
jieren lo...tinghan lo...lloyd(bt last no go)...joo an...fj...huihan...jqian...syee...
before dat gt little bit mistake d lo...XD...bt at the last moment okay ad...

v r the last one reach new jj...v go thr wit my family....lolx
thn fj call joo ann go out from green box to sambut us...XD
wow...she wear so short d shorts o...XD...nice look...XD...
thn we go sing k lo...XD...walao...
hh them juz play nia...she haold the microphone n shouted it...XD...
her voice so geng ad...n plus microphone...XD

n i sing wit fj n jooann...dunoe gt make sound pollute or no...
serious pro...broke my image...XD..bt i think muz gt d la...
esp sing 我知道 n 失落沙洲 waaa...can make the speaker explode d...XD

n thn joo an beh tahan ad...cauz juz sing only...
n she say she eat 2 nasi goreng ad o...dun wan stay at thr o...
thn me...fj n her go out n leave them play lo...

v wan eat bbq d...bt dun noe gt expensive or no...
thn see the menu...really expensive o...T^T..
the server is a pretty jie jie o...thn she ask v how age r us o...
thn joo an say form 2...
she hear dat n looks very excited o...n go to zhuang tiang o...
she say very tall o...XD...amsong...XD...
thn fj ask her how age...she wan us guess...thn i think is 16...bt no say out la..
thn joo an/fj say F5 o...she go zhuang tiang again...= =...
she say sadly...T^T...i juz after pmr only leh....
waa...v pai sei lo...
actually i wan gt her num d..bt they say dun wan o...haiz...lose kao lui d chance...

thn fj say wan see movie o...n thn me n joo an dun wan....
planet wat d...looks like so cheap d movie...XD
thn we go out eat lo..choose very long time oso dun noe wan eat wat..
n i very hungry ad...eat shit oso wan la...vomit
thn secret recipe lo...walao...i hou hui ad...very expensive a...
n so big plate o..walao...wan leave...
wan go find the bbq jie jie...T^T...

n before dat...hh gt find hutang from us la...
XD...gt many maths problem....XD...bt dun noe the conclusion la...
thn after eat...send fj go cinema lo...
thn go wit jooann...XD..shopping thr...cant find icecream...T^T
haiz...thn v go see a gerai...3 earlings for 10 o...
joo an wan see o...thn i see oso lo...thn i find 3 ad....all black d...
thn joo an oso lo...thn the tauke say send one o...send to joo ann...

thn joo an mum come ad...thn v go find fj lo...
thn go find her mum...thn her mum leave them at old town...
thn i eat blue berry icecream...thn fj drink lime...
thn wait her aunt take back us lo...
thn finally go back home...tired...

sienz zar...
holiday so sienz...wan go out...T^T